Tuesday, November 10, 2009

It's me again...

As always life is busy. But life is good.

Thomas is flourishing in kindergarten. He has an awesome teacher. They have loaned him a communication device called a "Dynavox". It is fairly easy to operate once it is programmed and he is a rockstar when he uses it. It has made life around here a lot easier and less frustrating for all of us.

Jacob is growing fast and doing things ahead of schedule. It's a relief to have him reach milestones early, but bittersweet because I see in him all the things Thomas could have been. Everyone knows I love Thomas as he is, but Jacob is the spitting image of his big brother and to see him doing things already that Thomas still cannot do (sitting on his bottom on the floor) is bittersweet. It's like seeing the baby Thomas *should* have been. That seems so horrible to me to say that, but it's true. That is what I dreamed of for Thomas.

Meanwhile Thomas has taken well to being a big brother. He loves Jacob and is so sweet with him. Jacob adores Thomas and loves any bit of attention Thomas will bestow upon him. Those are the moments that make it worth getting out of bed in the morning.